As a child, I learned to become a people pleaser. Even though I wasn’t aware of it, what I really craved was love and acceptance. Through the dysfunctions of life I adopted the paradigm that love was conditional. You had to earn it. So, I pleased as many people as would allow me.
As an adult it transferred to also doing the “right thing”. Even failing became the right thing, because to some it meant you were at least out there trying, and I pleased them too. With God, I was afraid to do the wrong thing in case it displeased God.
Learning to calm and silence my mind, when it needed to be, helped me to drop all that from my body like old clothing. I became aware of the real and true me. I came into a deeper knowing of God and my awareness of what oneness with God and everything developed.
Although I still struggle at times with the need to please, my belief in and the awareness of who I truly am has evolved. It was in there already. I just had to rediscover it.
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